Searching For Skinny Instead of Fit

Fit Feels So Much Better Than SkinnyMost girls are aware at a very young age that “skinny” is better than “fat.” I felt “fat” through my awkward years (I insist I was over weight, my mom says it was just a “stage”). As I entered my late teens I began a quest for that perfect skinny feeling. I gained and lost weight through out college and my early twenties. The weight loss was always achieved by counting calories, going hungry, and jogging as much as I could. I thought that was what I was supposed to do to stay healthy. I thought eventually it would make me feel confident in my own skin.

It never did.

By my mid-20’s, I accepted that “searching for skinny” was just a perpetual state of living for women. I assumed it would never feel good enough, comfortable enough, thin enough. The top photo in the collage above was at my wedding – I felt beautiful. The dress fit. If you had asked me, I probably would have said 5 more pounds less would have made me feel just right. Truth is, it probably wouldn’t have been “enough.”

The bottom left photo is 3 months post-partum with my second son, and just under the heaviest I’ve been in my life – 170ish pounds. After seeing that picture I decided it was time to get back to my skinny quest, and boy did I! I got my butt into gear, starting eating ONLY 1200 calories a day, doing cardio until I was blue in the face, and struggling with exhaustion, fatigue, hunger, and two babies. I lost weight and plateaued at the weight in the middle, bottom image. My pants still didn’t button, and I was far from comfortable in my skin. I accepted that my body would just be different after having kids because after 2 months at a plateau, I wasn’t seeing any changes.

Enter my friend (and now Beachbody Coach), Tiffany. We actually met on Facebook in a mommy support group. She invited me to join her online fitness support group and give P90X a try. I was incredibly bored with my cardio and figured I had nothing to lose. Let me tell you, I had NO expectation that it would change my body that much. During the 90 days of P90X I committed to:

1. Eating as clean as possible, sticking very close to a Paleo diet
2. Letting go of counting calories and recording every single bite I ate (oh this was scary and FREEING all at the same time)
3. Getting in all the workouts, no matter how much I had to modify them

As you can see, 90 days later my body was completely transformed. Guess what, the scale said I was only 3 pounds lighter! Yep, that’s ONLY 3 pound difference, AND (get this) about one size BIGGER than I was on my wedding day. Shocked, I realized that for the first time in my life I felt like it was “good enough” … in fact it was GREAT. I felt amazing in my clothes, cared less about what size was on the tag, and basically threw out my scale.

All those years, I was seeking FIT, not skinny. I didn’t know how to get there, or what it was called. Having been on the quest for both, let me tell you FIT is so much better and so much more FUN. It feels amazing and it’s always good ENOUGH.


Me and the boysMeagan is a 30 something year old wife, mom, and fitness enthusiast (fanatic?).She loves being a boy mom, fitness, cooking healthy food, and working from her dining room.   In the last year and half she helped over one hundred people lose hundreds of pounds & inches.  Her goal is to help women, and especially women with post-baby bodies, live happier lives with more self-confidence than ever before. She knows that once there is some fun put into fitness (with a little bit of family), the sky is the limit!  Her mission is helping people become healthy, fit, and financially free so they can lead fulfilling, vibrant lives. If you’d like to know more about becoming or staying fit physically or financially, e-mail her today!


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